GOD WHAT'S TAKING YOU SO LONG?! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO SHOW UP?! WHEN AM I GOING TO ARRIVE?!
I've had come to the realization that my negative thoughts towards myself can be my worst enemy. Those questions constantly play on my mind. My negative thoughts bruise my soul and makes me feel like God has forgotten about me. Which I know deep down isn't true. God loves me. I know he has amazing plans for my life. The thing I struggle with is how do I get my emotions to line up with God's truth?
GOD will fight the battle for you. And you? You keep your mouths shut!” GOD said to Moses: “Why cry out to me? Speak to the Israelites. Order them to get moving. Hold your staff high and stretch your hand out over the sea: Split the sea! The Israelites will walk through the sea on dry ground. (Exodus 14:14-16 MSG)
I was reading the book of exodus and talking about how the Israelites were so annoying and if I was Moses I would of hit them all with my staff and tell them to shut up because I'm trusting God all the way to the promise land! And then God just shut me downnn...
God: " why don't you tell your Israelites to shut up, because your trusting me all the way to the promise land?"
Me: " I have Israelites?!"
God: " yes you do. They're the emotions and negative thoughts inside your head. They do noting but keep you complaining and expanding your journey."
I came to the conclusion that if I don't find joy in the journey, peace in the process,and contentment in the contending, it's going to be a long miserable journey for me.
How to keep going and make it
"God will fight the battles for you, You just keep your mouth shut." A lot of times we expose ourselves to the devil. He only has access in places we allow him to go. When you speak death over yourselves your giving him bullets to try to shoot you with. If your not speaking life your speaking death. If your not saying positive thoughts about your self, then your speaking negatively. There are no grey areas. So shut up! Don't not give birth to negativity. Let it die!Know that whatever you struggle with Jesus is going to work it out for you! SHUT UP!
"Why cry out to me? Speak to the Israelites. Order them to get going..."
I found my self praying like this " God deliver me from loneliness and insecurity. Help me Jesus! Save me! And God's response shocked me!
"Kiera you have all the authority to speak to your own emotions. " God has graced all of his children to be leaders! He has stamped us with Jesus's power. Just like Jesus spoke to the waves and they stopped, we can talk to our negative thoughts and they will have no choice but to stop! I thought that I had to live through those waves of emotions. But then I learned I can fight and silence most of them. And so can you!
"Hold your staff high and stretch your hand out over the sea: Split the sea! The Israelites will walk through the sea and they will walk on dry ground." God has given you enough to handle your now place! All Moses had was a stick! But when he lifted it to God, it became a way maker. When Jesus died on the cross, God gave us a way maker. Jesus lives on the inside of us. So our little plus Jesus equals more than enough. God looked at you and choose you for this Journey. So take whatever you have and give it to him, he will make a way. Then you will start to become content with what you have and where you are now. You will learn to live expectant but grateful. And soon you will see dry land in the areas of your life that you thought were drowning you.
God trust you, in your journey. He assigned the journey to you knowing that you will make it no matter how big you thought your Red Sea was. No matter how loud your Israelites are. Whatever your promise land looks like to you, I know that with God you can make it there! When I get to the place God wants to bring me, I will smile because I know the process was worth it. But until then I'm going to find the joy in the journey, the peace in the process and contentment in the contending.
