The Frustation of God's Grip

The Frustration of God's Grip

Have you ever felt stuck? Felt like your in between a rock and a hard place? Well I'm going to be very honest here. I've felt this way for practically my entire life. 

In every season the limitations of what I can and cannot do looked different. When I was younger I wasn't allowed to hang out with my friends at certain places.I wasn't allowed to watch certain TV shows etc. I always looked at everyone else and said "that's not fair how come I can't do that?" At an earlier age I asked my parents that question. But now as an adult I ask God those questions. I realized that, that was just Gods way of guarding my heart, my soul and my mind. I avoided the heartache of a lot of things because God said NO! I realized my parents wasn't being mean, they were protecting me on God's behalf. I am forever grateful for that protection.

Now as a 20 year old young woman I still find God's protection FRUSTRATING!!!!!! I get angry sometimes because I can't put on a tight dress and some heels, get drunk and go to a popping club and twerk on a guy! I get irritated because I just can't date any guy who wants to ask me out. I get a little salty when I always have to be the bigger person and love when it's not deserved.I'm aggravated because I can't just lay down and be depressed. Something in me just won't die. It won't let me roll over and play dead. No matter how badly I want to throw in the towel and quit.  In this season I've had these moments quite often. I'm in a season where I'm just trusting God. I don't see anything that he has promised. Sometimes I wish I didn't hear his voice. It is not an easy thing to be chosen. It's not easy saying yes to God's will. But deep down in my soul I know it's WORTH IT!

When I feel like giving up I literally cry out and yell at God. I cried 

"Jesus help me. I don't know what to do. I'm hurting so bad God. Please make it stop. Don't you see I'm miserable? I feel stuck. I feel trapped! I feel used and abused.I'm only 20 I shouldn't be this stressed!!!! Why me God???? WHY?!"

"Because I have CHOSEN YOU MY BELOVED! Yes I see you. I know your heart is broken. I see every tear you cry! But you know what else I see? I see a strong pastor of a church one day. I see a devoted, gracious wife. I see a loving patient mother. I see an successful author. I see a woman who is on fire for me. That woman is the person I'm crafting you to be! I have to break you and remold you. It's not going to be fun, but trust that it's all going to be worth it. And I'll get all the glory for it. You're not stuck sweetie. I don't want you to move from this training ground. What you feel is my loving tight grip! Your my seed and underground I'm watering you. So when you burst out and I will unveil you, you will bare fruit for my kingdom. I love you to much to let you go. This is only for a season. Better days are coming princess. Trust me."

So I Kiera Danielle Ford give Jesus Christ my savior, permission to do whatever you want to do in me. I won't quit no matter what I may look like to people! No matter how I feel I will wait upon You God! I've wrestled with God a lot this season! I've told him to let me go. But he loved me enough to squeeze me tighter. I've felt condemned because I told Jesus to leave me alone. I've felt bad because I was fighting with him. But I immediately starting praising him because his hand was still on me when I wasn't worthy of his hand. The best realization about wrestling with God is that his hands are on you the whole time and he always wins!

Embrace God's grip on your life. It's confirmation that you are special! That you are chosen for a divine purpose! Surrendering to God doesn't mean giving up it means, your being saved up for better.

Seasonal Blessings( the truth about forever)

Seasonal blessings 

(The truth about forever)

I haven't always been good at letting certain things go. And I'm not talking about hoarding negative emotions and bad experiences . I struggled to let go of a good season when God said the time was up. I was afraid that  there wasn't better for me out there. I had a habit of my really relying on people and giving them things that I should of gave to God for him to handle. God had to teach me that I should only hold him that closely. I had to learn how to transition in different seasons.And in every season and transition HE was faithful.God is eternity.

God gives us things and people for only a season sometimes.When that job or person time is up we tend to mourn.

Everything in our life is borrowed. God lends us people. We don't even belong to our parents. Their temporally in charge of us. God gives them the responsibility to raise us in the way that he allows us to be raised. 

Your parents don't support what GOD is telling you to do? Ok say "thanks for your opinion. Love you." And you go back to your heavenly fathers business. Because at the end of the day he's the only approval we need.We are children of the almighty king. He's the only guaranteed thing in our lives. His love is the promise that can't be broken. His way is the right way.He's the only faithful thing in every season. the only thing without a time limit because he created time.

We tend to carry old things that expired into our new season. Then we tell god " lord I'm feeling heavy, over worked, tired and burdened." Duh!!! That's because your carrying  things that we don't need in that season. That's like you carrying your winter coat in the summer. Yes the winter coat was a blessing. It kept you warm. It protected you from the rain. It allowed you to move and go out in the winter. But now it's summer. You no longer need it. God promised you that you will make it through not the coat.  

Let go of old things that are holding you back. Don't cry on a shut door that God put chains on. If you lift your head you can see God standing in front of an open door waiting for you to walk through. It's not healthy to clutch on to people or things. When we refuse to let things go we're refusing to trust God. The things, dreams and people you love are the safest in God's hand. Why wouldn't you want the one you love the most to be in charge of the things you love? God is Lord! He is the boss! Surrender everything to him and allow him to do whatever he wants to do with it! And trust that whatever he does is for your best interest!

Eternity lies in ONLY his hands. Not your husbands hand, not your parents hands, not your best friends hands.You can't put forever on anything but Gods love. Let it go.